Plastic

Hmmm....funny how sometimes I'll go weeks without posting anything, then suddenly I'll get on a posting spree and I'll post every single day and even more than once in a day....well, not like I'm on a posting spree right now, but that was just an observation. Ok, so, let me just first start by saying I'm in a rather weird mood (i know...SURPRISE!), perhaps it's the Fake Plastic Trees I'm listening to, not that it is a weird song, I just love it so much that I guess it stirs my emotions and then sends me down a path of thinking (oh, and it also makes me think about Bilbo Baggins..yep, it's true)...well, that and the green-ness of the song, I mean, come on, can you get any more green than that song? Oh man, I love that song...I really do. Quite a picture of this consumerist and superficial culture we sometimes (more often than we should) find ourselves in. Gosh, how we need to break free from our superficiality, to break free from those molds we create for ourselves...the molds that are wearing us out. The sad thing is that all of our investing in vanity and materialism is causing us to fall apart physically and spiritually (hey, and I'm totally guilty of it too)...whoooooa, rach...stop....got all negative there for a sec. Obviously, the modern world isn't bad. I'm glad to exist during this time. I'm blessed to be able to experience the benefits of the time and culture in which we live, but "I can't help but feeling, I could blow through the ceiling....and it wears me out. And if I could be who you wanted, all the time."

ALRIGHT...now that I got my Radiohead tangent out of the way (oh, did I mention that they are just about one of the best bands EVER? I didn't? Hmm...well THEY ARE!)...moving on. So, as of yesterday, I am currently un-employed. Yep, it's true. Took a little juant into working land (about a month to be more specific) and decided it wasn't for me...well, actually, that's not true. I am definitely not destined to be a couch dweller forever living off my father's retirement (no worries dad...although I do enjoy our breakfasts at 1134). Actually, to be honest, quite the opposite. I learned a lot from this last job...what did you learn Rach?well...I'll tell you. I learned about what it means to be passionate in your career and in life in general. I learned that I am NOT passionate about money, and probably never will be...I learned that money does absolutely NOTHING to fill you up as a person or to give you purpose. Nothing. Well, I tried to fool myself in the beginning because my potential for growth in this company was great and the company and the job itself were fun, and if I could just give it my all THEN I would get there.....no.

And you know what, I'm not at all saying that money is bad...hardly. Money is something that can be used for great good...I'm not one of those folks that goes around saying money is evil, all I'm saying is that I personally don't desire it. oh yeah, sure I would love to be secure and never have to worry about bills...but what I learned is that it IS NOT necessary for my happiness and selfworth, and I have found, just in people that I have met throughout life with money, that I am no less happy than they are, and no less fulfilled. So, one thing that I was reminded of at this job was that when you chase after your passion, it is then that you are on the right track...because it is then that you are being who you are. There are people at that company that are passionate about it and love it, and I think that's rad. But I was not that person, and for me to be there would have been a waste...a waste of my time and a waste of their money. So really, me leaving was a two way beneficial street. And I'm not saying anything bad about them at all (I was even inspired by them), I'm just saying that I was not the right person for the job...the people that stay there, the people who really love that company and pour themselves into it, those people are the ones who belong there. They are the ones who deserve it's success...not me. I did like the job though...it was fun talking to people and my coworkers were awesome. But yeah, I decided to leave the company and pursue something I feel passionately about...perhaps then I will achieve true success instead of emptiness. So yeah, not exactly sure what I'll be doing, but hey, guess you'll just have to keep reading my blog...something will pop up eventually...hmmm...someone recently asked me if I would ever consider being a groupie for a band...perhaps that's my calling, I mean, that would require a lot of world travel, I could read a lot of books on the plane, hmm...the only thing missing would be the tree hugging, but you know, Chris Martin is really involved in Fair Trade, so that's pretty tree hugger if you ask me...looks like I'm set...Radiohead, Death Cab, Chris Martin...be ready! ;-)

So I was totally going to post an excerpt from a sweet book I'm reading right now, but that would just push this blog over the top as far as length goes, so I'll save that for tomorrow...until then...buenas noches from your green friend, and may you find what it is you're passionate about.